What I Fear The Most --- DISSATISFACTION, DISAPPOINTMENT AND DOUBT

Though I pride myself on individuality, how others perceive me and judge me does weigh heavy on my mind. Not that I would ever change who I am because of what someone thinks, but it does play apart on future decision making.

When I started blogging, it was to explore a world I am fond of ... SEX. I am intrigued to no end by sexual liberation. Those that feel free to express themselves sexually excite me. Yet, I feel that people will look at me as some kind of whore for expressing how I feel. So sad is the day and time we live in that people must shield who they really are to avoid slander and degradation. I am no nympho but I do enjoy sex and the thrill of knowing that I can truly satisfy my partner's every need. Love is not solely based on sex, I know this, but honestly without sex a relationship is going to go but so far.

With that being said, how many of us are truly into the art of satisfaction and who are we trying to satisfy the most? Besides God, how do we view our day to day activities in the eyes of those we love and hold dear. Do we take their feelings into consideration when making decisions? Whatever I do, no matter how big or small, I always think of my son, my mom and my spouse. It would tear me apart to think that either of them were dissatisfied with my actions, disappointed in who I have become or have any doubt as to my loyalty to them. For my spouse, I tend to go above and beyond because this is not someone that has any other kind of bond other than emotional, maybe physical. Is it ok to go overboard with trying to please your partner? Do you ever come to a point where your feel that no matter how much you do, they just will never be completely satisfied? When do you find the strength to let them go?

My fear for dissatisfaction, disappointment and doubt provides the gas I need to move on. I know that may sound strange but I am more into the idea of pleasing me before anyone else. Don't get me wrong, I will try to bring something to the table to increase the happiness in our relationship but remember this is a partnership and they must be willing to meet me half-way. If they are truly unhappy, it might just be a reflection of what I am really feeling and at that point there is nothing I could do to change it. However, sometimes I do believe that my fear may also cause me to flea prematurely.

My question to all of you is - Is there anyway to truly give unconditionally of yourself and still remain true to who you are? My favorite saying it, "I can only be me. I been practicing this role all my life." What do you do if you feel like someone wants to change you into someone that you do not recognize? Should your fear hold you captive or fuel you to break free?

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Danette

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Truly Amazing! The Wonders of You.

It is absolutely a mind-blowing experience when something that you have been praying on for so long start to come to light. Over the last month, I have been beating myself up. Feeling like you are not productive from day to day can take a toll on you emotionally and mentally. I began to feel as if a lot of the steps I had taken towards securing my financial future were actually going to be my financial setbacks and that I would have to give-up on a lot of the hard work I had already put into these projects. However, I am beginning to see my hard work bring my dreams to fruition.

As the saying goes, God will never put more on us than we can bear. These are our test. If we stand true to our heart desires than anything we set our minds to can become a reality. I see now that I was just being tested. I asked myself over and over "What am I doing?", "Why am I trying so hard to make this happen?" and "How do these things relate?". Now I can see how all these things correlate. My dream is to be a mentor, a motivator, a teacher to anyone who can learn from my mistakes both personally and professionally. I used my books as a way to reach those individuals who feel shut out and lost. Yet I still felt unsatisfied. I start my career in Mary Kay to connect and network with like minded ladies that we dreaming big and 'doing it for themselves'. Still a void lived within.

It wasn't until I began to talk and actually listen to myself and those around me. I am here for a grand purpose. God has brought me through many struggles and somehow I buried the message deep within. The message was meant to be shared, to inspire and motivate. The more I began to open up and release that hurt, anger and lies, the greater my purpose became. The picture became crystal clear. My goal is is right before me. The more I accept who I am and where I have been, the closer I get to where I am supposed to be.

Lately, God has been placing the ideas right in front of me and now I understand. People and opportunities are falling into my lap. Life is turning around in a way I would have never expected. It started with first learning who I really am so that I know what I have to offer. This is key in relationships of any kind. Knowing what makes me tick has shown maturity in my thoughts, decision making and lifestyle. Finding my drive was next in my journey. Once you come to realize that you are living your dream, you smile without thought. That's joy! You're happy from the heart. Now you are ready to grow, be strong and spread your wealth. Not financial wealth. Knowledge.

In 2012, find your worth. Discover the gem that has been hiding inside of you. Dream and believe in yourself. There is an untapped happiness within that will take you to places you have only prayed to find. Reach out to someone. Be their support and in turn they just might be what you need to find what makes you, YOU! We all have a purpose in life. Let's start defining who we are.

Books, Blessings and Bliss to you all!

Danette Maroney