Sunday, November 21, 2010

Let's Get Reacquainted!

Hello All,

Yes I have been gone for a minute traveling down all the different roads of life and found that I was most happy back where I already was. Does it feel like a complete waste of time? Not at all! I learned things about myself and others that I may not have had I not ventured out. I tried different things made some new friends, lost some friends and reconnected with lost friends. As far as the love life is concern, well ahh let's just say I am better off now.

They say it's better to have loved and lost than not to have loved at all. But how many times can you lose love before losing your DAMN mind. I mean really, maybe I am just really not ready for relationships or just not relationship material. I find that I am very selfish at times and I know it is a bad trait to carry into a budding relationship but if I don't think about me first and cater to my likes and dislikes then who will.

I remember feeling like I could rip my heart straight out my chest and burn it just so I could stop the pain from losing who I realized was my first love. I mean I was in love with him, I can't speak for that user. And then I found myself in one bad relationship after the other trying to find that same high. Like being addicted to drugs, trying to find the euphoria of the first hit is liable to kill you. I wore my vunerability on my sleeve and every bloodhound was able to track my scent and lie as dogs may. No I am not bitter just stating the facts. Maybe its the folks I attract or maybe its my inability to see through the bullsh*t. Either way I am done searching and done waiting. I am happy single (not to mention I finally got money in the bank). Yeah, it's a wonderful to shake loose the bad luck that has been holding me back and emerge under a new sun. One that shines towards purposeful and drama-free new year.

As this year closes, I pray that I continue to find happiness in just being Danette. Not your significant other, not your ATM, not your personal maid... Just the best me that GOD intended for me to be.

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